Dreamt of Gorgeous last night ... He must still be lurking in my mind subconsciously... :(
Nothing should have ever happened in the first place because when it did, it just became disastrous. We're too alike. Very indecisive.
What I have now is a blessing.. Sugarrush. Coming 4 years now ... And we've already made plans for the future; Insyallah
I love you, and will always do. Sugarrush.
love, diyana
08:51 pm
I've been told that I always cry in my dreams.
Last night I dreamt that Sugarrush was cheating on me and I woke up hearing myself say he's cheating on me and I automatically cried. I was crying in the dream as well.
Crying
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.�
To see someone else crying in your dream, may be a projection of your own feelings onto someone else. If you do not cry in your waking life, then seeing someone else cry may be a little easier to deal with then seeing yourself cry.
To wake up crying, represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on.
To dream that no one hears or responds to your cries, represents your helplessness and difficulties and frustrations in trying to communicate with others. You feel that your words are falling on deaf ears. Perhaps your dream is telling you to be more vocal and work harder to get your point across.
Maybe I should get some help.
love, diyana
02:58 pm
I've only recently realised that I suck at socializing.
I rarely look for people, I barely call them, I barely meet them.
I dont even update my blog for goodness sake.
Im such a loser. HAHA
Okay whatever. Havent been updating since my last intern came and left already. LOL
So my last so called event was Hana's family chalet. Don't even ask why I was there butting in her family's event.
Managed to mingle properly with her aunties and cousins ... Nira and Mimi were there as well but they left early cause Nira had to work long hours the next day.
Bar and zul fetched me at around midnight ... So Hana and her cousin joined us for a ride. THE MOST HILARIOUS RIDE I'VE EVER ever HAD LOR!
Bar pretended it was F1 and the girls (us!) were in the backseat, flying and laughing like there was no tomorrow.
So we checked out the ladyboys at Changi and it wasnt really interesting though. But what was interesting was that, her cousin thought she saw a cockroach in the car. I wouldnt get back in the car.
And thats when they found 2 uneaten curry puffs under the front seat. WE REALLY LAUGHED LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW! I shrilled though. Haha.
I shall not backdate anymore cause everything can be found on my facebook :) :)
Plenty of pictures taken in the past month ...
Buffet with colleagues at Merchant Court
Raya pictures etc.
But anyway, Im really sad that this weekend's KL trip is cancelled. Was hoping to meet Yohana! Well, she's my new friend from Sabah. And we're fans of AFGAN!!!
That's how I met her :)
Last but not least ...
I still melt at the sight of him, quiver with excitement when I hear his song.
Afgan, I'm really, REALLY obsessed with you.
(do you know that I've been getting updates from @afgannisme on twitter?) :P
I wonder how Sugarrush can still stand me. HAH
* mi estilo // cause he's the only one who really understands me
love, diyana
12:19 am