This is for my people's who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high, we will never say bye
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people's who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me alive
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying, "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown full things separation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reached a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm bragging next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong that you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
Monday, October 26, 2009
My Dreams
I've been told that I always cry in my dreams.
Last night I dreamt that Sugarrush was cheating on me and I woke up hearing myself say he's cheating on me and I automatically cried. I was crying in the dream as well.
Crying
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.�
To see someone else crying in your dream, may be a projection of your own feelings onto someone else. If you do not cry in your waking life, then seeing someone else cry may be a little easier to deal with then seeing yourself cry.
To wake up crying, represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on.
To dream that no one hears or responds to your cries, represents your helplessness and difficulties and frustrations in trying to communicate with others. You feel that your words are falling on deaf ears. Perhaps your dream is telling you to be more vocal and work harder to get your point across.
Maybe I should get some help.
love, diyana 02:58 pm
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Updates
I've only recently realised that I suck at socializing.
I rarely look for people, I barely call them, I barely meet them.
I dont even update my blog for goodness sake.
Im such a loser. HAHA
Okay whatever. Havent been updating since my last intern came and left already. LOL
So my last so called event was Hana's family chalet. Don't even ask why I was there butting in her family's event.
Managed to mingle properly with her aunties and cousins ... Nira and Mimi were there as well but they left early cause Nira had to work long hours the next day.
Bar and zul fetched me at around midnight ... So Hana and her cousin joined us for a ride. THE MOST HILARIOUS RIDE I'VE EVER ever HAD LOR!
Bar pretended it was F1 and the girls (us!) were in the backseat, flying and laughing like there was no tomorrow.
So we checked out the ladyboys at Changi and it wasnt really interesting though. But what was interesting was that, her cousin thought she saw a cockroach in the car. I wouldnt get back in the car.
And thats when they found 2 uneaten curry puffs under the front seat. WE REALLY LAUGHED LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW! I shrilled though. Haha.
I shall not backdate anymore cause everything can be found on my facebook :) :) Plenty of pictures taken in the past month ... Buffet with colleagues at Merchant Court Raya pictures etc.
But anyway, Im really sad that this weekend's KL trip is cancelled. Was hoping to meet Yohana! Well, she's my new friend from Sabah. And we're fans of AFGAN!!! That's how I met her :)
Last but not least ...
I still melt at the sight of him, quiver with excitement when I hear his song.
Afgan, I'm really, REALLY obsessed with you.
(do you know that I've been getting updates from @afgannisme on twitter?) :P
I wonder how Sugarrush can still stand me. HAH
* mi estilo // cause he's the only one who really understands me
love, diyana 12:19 am
Thursday, September 03, 2009
Afgan
I still am not over Afgan Syah Reza. Even though I've got his songs in my phone, I STILL want his cd. So I can drool over his picture every night.
I swear to God Im super crazy about him. Haha. YOUNGER GUYS ARE OFTEN CUTER! AND HE'S AN EXTREME EXCEPTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No offense Zul. You know Im super going gaga over him :P
Mak kau. PLEASE AKU NAK MEET HIM FACE TO FACE!
So anyway, had an impromptu meet up with the girls in Geylang. THEY MADE ME WAIT FOR ALMOST AN HOUR! I tell you, I didnt buka in time cause there was no way I was leaving my stuff on the table even for few seconds.
Some apek sat down directly across me without asking me if its okay he joined me. SO POLITE HOR. Then without me realising it, another apek bought a plate of cut fruits and sat next to him. Mind you, this is a round table so there were 6 seats.
At that point of time, I was really worried that my table would be eventually conquered by sole apeks.
By the time the girls came (FANA & LIN!!), I was already sipping away my gloriously delicious orange juice. Try it. It looks pale but its sweet !!!!
Manage to survey most of the kebaya/kurung and selected two .. Our color (sugarrush & me) is dark blue. I've already chosen his. And I'm never going to choose mine. He's always got to decide for me. Haha.
Thank god for Farna's parent fetching us. My heels were on the verge of killing me when I saw a pair of gladiator sandals going at $3.90
WHAT A FKIN STEAL!
So even if I've already sworn those sandals are already a cliche, I had to buy or die.
And as uncomfortable as I was wearing my dress + blazer with the sandals, I must say they actually look good on my feet. HAHA
Anyway, I've just started working at Badoque recently just to help them out for Ramadhan. So far so good ... Sort of killing two birds with one stone.
Im earning extra income
I GET TO SEE SUGARRUSH!!!!! :):):)
So what if its tiring me out, it's really going to be hard to meet him for this Ramadhan cause he has to work ALMOST every day so this is the best way to earn and romance. Haha.
Well anyway do check out badoque's website, badoque.sg for more information on current promo!
